Taking responsibility

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Getting help from others has been really helpful for me, but I can鈥檛 expect others to fix all of my issues for me. Sometimes I think I have had that expectation, but there are some things I just have to pull through for myself.

One of the biggest things I have to sort out for myself is getting on top of my own life. No one else can do that for me, that鈥檚 something that falls to me.聽

What does it mean to be 鈥渙n top鈥 of life? I guess I see it as having a healthy balance between all the obligations and optional things that take up my time. Career, social life, health, volunteering, hobbies.

I need to manage my own time and what I鈥檓 doing. It鈥檚 not up to others to tell me what to do, I need to make my own decisions about these things. I need to balance thinking about things and getting feedback, with the need to actually get stuff done. I need to carve out time for myself to plan out what is going on in my life and to be clear about what I鈥檓 doing each day, week and month. Then I need to follow through and do it.

I need to take responsibility for my own emotions. When I鈥檓 feeling a lack of motivation or confidence, that鈥檚 something for me to deal with. If things get really desperate, maybe I can seek out a motivational speaker or a life coach? Even then, there needs to be a drive in myself to actually do the things I want to do.

I鈥檝e been in a fairly constant state of fighting to improve myself over the course of my blogs. I think I actually have been getting somewhere with my goals. I鈥檓 fitter, I feel like I鈥檓 a better thinker, I feel like I manage my time better. There鈥檚 been a lot of knock-backs, but I鈥檝e worked through them. I鈥檓 in a position where I鈥檓 able to take more responsibility for myself and continue the fight to be better than I was yesterday.

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