Now I'm TOO Motivated
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Life is cruel, so be careful what you wish for. Last week I felt a real lack of motivation. Now, I鈥檓 TOO motivated.
I didn鈥檛 think it was possible to be too motivated. What does that look like? Well, I鈥檓 not having an issue getting started on work anymore, I鈥檝e been doing alright at that. The issue now is that I just can鈥檛 switch the motivation off.聽 I鈥檓 unable to just sit back and relax for a lunch break because my head is thinking about how much I need to be doing all the tasks I have to do.
That鈥檚 not the worst of it though. The worst part is that I can鈥檛 stop thinking of ideas and ways of phrasing things when I鈥檓 trying to get to sleep. I feel like I could run a mile, my heart rates really high all while I鈥檓 supposed to be peaceful and relaxed. So I lie in the dark for hours trying to get to sleep. Trying to get to sleep never achieves anything cause it鈥檚 not really something you can try and do.
How do I switch off when I need to? I鈥檝e found that slowing down my breathing rate and taking deep breaths helps quite a bit. It鈥檚 just a matter of getting into a headspace of relaxation. If that doesn鈥檛 work, I go make my self a tea and sit down for a bit.
It鈥檚 crazy how much our mood controls our behaviour. If I had complete control over myself, I鈥檇 just instantly go to sleep. It鈥檚 because I鈥檓 buzzing so much from tasks during the day, that鈥檚 not what happens.
The ability to control your own mood is such an important thing. To be peaceful when you feel like being angry; confident when you feel like being shy; restful when you鈥檙e filled with adrenaline.